Again intense sadness soul eats me choking the life I do not understand last week I was perfectly happy as well ... ... .. but This week I feel the sadness goes rolling on my and I hate feeling this way ... I feel sad I know, but I can not contain, and I can not repress .... It will hurt me, make me feel bad so sad ... I hate it I hate this life ... I will not be leaving my house for a period of 15 days, until I feel stable enough ....
Yesterday was horrible day dial my sister and her boyfriend and I went to eat, as I have been in semi fasting a week ... the food obviously was going to drop me super bad ... ... I only ate half a hamburger .... The reaction was then terrible, I have never in my life felt so ana vomit .... My stomach hurt in a horrible and I do not think you were for so much .... The fact is that you finish throwing up ... I could not sleep all night ... stomach pain. ... What is going on from when going to ana and mia at the same time ... .. I think I'm going to get to mourn
truth is that hard to go out and every time one passes from one stage to another ... .. if "ana" is destructive, "mia" is self-defeating, in my opinion does more harm mine ... .... I would like to become mine .... Ana "is easier control ....
With my lay with "ana" and my new goal of 45, desist not come until the end ... .. What I can say "ana" returned to my life in a way off guard, really struggle to not get too into this, so I would not be absorbed again and catch .... But I'm finding something difficult ... . For now, ana provides me with something that I have "control"
mood princess But with this new goal
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